At the start of this year, I had a list. A list of books to write. This list got re-arranged and the Peace Novella Series bloomed and blossomed to take shape. That project is very near a final completion; my novella is now on pre-order and will come to fruition mid-January.
This means that I can now resume ruminating on my to-do list. I have spent the last two weeks looking at notebooks and folders, trying to conjure up things. It is painful, when you sit there for forty minutes looking at your handwriting and you can’t see a single solitary thing in your minds eye.
What is the use, if you just can’t? What if in that particular set of pages, that universe isn’t materialising?
There is no point in defying the laws of physics and trying to make something out of nothing. Especially, when I already have something that is started.
Eleven months ago, I stashed away the idea of writing another gardening/cookbook. It didn’t feel right, there was nothing in the tank. I couldn’t settle on what to do and how; I wasn’t sure as to what I could offer and whether it was of any use.
Then I drove to work this morning.
I had Maroon5’s Red Pill Blues on shuffle.
I remembered this folder, this idea.
Coming home, I had to go find it, and flick through. I felt zinging, I was trying to smile. There was half a plan all those months ago.
Time to let it roll.